my belief system

i would like to describe my belief system in this post, in order to clarify the context by which you should critically examine the content of all of my blog posts, and indeed all that i do, say, write, type, or otherwise communicate or demonstrate, as well as my thinking process that underlies the entire enterprise. first of all, i believe in nothing whatsoever; there is not a single thing that i actually believe in 100%. secondly, i am prone to minor bouts of exaggeration. third, sometimes i make up things which are absurd. and fourth, i only “believe” things which are demonstrated beyond a reasonable doubt using empirical evidence and flawless logic. but i do not actually believe them. i just think i believe them. but nobody actually ever believes anything, ever. it is just a mind trick we all play on ourselves. if you examine the process of belief, of how a person comes to think that a certain fact is true, and do enough critical examination of this process, eventually you come to the conclusion that the entire process is a bunch of bullshit. you see, all humans are flawed, and we have finite minds that start out entirely empty when we are born, and we are always forgetting things that we used to know. our minds are deeply flawed tools that we, holistically referring to the entire individual both physical and metaphysical, use for survival, as organic living life-forms that exist as physical objects within 3 extended dimensions of euclidean or near-euclidean space and 1 extended dimension of time. so, we start out knowing nothing. and we learn things throughout our process of existence, of subsistence, and of insistence, resistence, persistence, and assistence. we are like dogs in that we learn things through pavlovian conditioning. and some of us are more loyal like dogs but some of us are more independent-minded like cats and other wild beasts of the loner species, species where each individual animal lives on its own and does not have much social interaction with other animals except predation, mating, and fighting. so what are humans like? we are like chickens, with a pecking order. and part of our brain is still quite similar to reptiles, a part that takes over in instinctual life-or-death crises. the human brain is like a giant clusterfuck of all the brains of other animals, all hooked up together. the dog brain, the cat brain, the chicken brain, the reptilian brain, the bonobo brain... you can never forget bonobos, the weird little monkeys that have sex all the time. our brains are like weird frankenstein monsters with different parts from different creatures all glued together. because of our abnormalities when compared to other animals, there are certain adjustments that nature had to make, to allow us to have all of our silly advanced language and culture and technology. we are bipedal, walking on 2 legs, and we are much less hairy than most mammals, but we still have more hair than mole rats. we use tools, which is something that very few species know how to do... mostly a behavior reserved for primates. we are larger than most animals, but not ridiculously large, still smaller than the gigantic ones like elephants and whales and dinosaurs. and of course, we have advanced vocal cords capable of speech that allows for meaningful, complicated languages. a few other species like parrots have vocal cords like that. and, to go with the bipedal walking on 2 feet part, our front paws are actually called hands, and we have opposable thumbs. so, there are like, a couple different ways we are different from other animals, but not that many. now if you ever observe animals, you might notice that they are quite silly, quite stupid, and really fun to watch. most animals seem to be afraid of everything, and whenever you go near them, they run away, in a state of irrational panic, since their inferior minds cannot contemplate the reality of the situation. they are simply concerned with survival. now many animals have different noises they make to communicate with others of their species. humans are not unique at all in this. our spoken language is just much more advanced, and we have developed many different languages because our brains are not hardwired for any specific language, just a general sort of language that we can learn after being born, without knowing any of it in advance. in contrast, some species of animals seem to have their brains hardwired to understand the simple language that animals of that species use to communicate. so, anyway, our brains are very fallible and based on inferior animal design. we start out knowing nothing and believe what we are taught. now we sometimes question what others tell us, a tendency which starts at some point in childhood and gradually increases over the course of a lifetime, usually. but how do we decide what to believe and what to question? this is based on our emotions, usually, and what our own life experiences and biases make us likely to think. it is a fact that most people raised by muslim parents in muslim countries end up believing in islam. the same thing is true for christians, jews, buddhists, atheists, communists, hindus, zoroastrians, and scientologists... children usually end up believing what their parents taught them. this is despite the fact that each pair of parents (or any other sort of family arrangement that serves a similar purpose to parents) teaches the children different things from all the other parents. all children are raised differently by different parents. and they have different dna too. so, even if everything is predetermined and nothing is random, we still have quite a bit of basis for children to turn out differently. now, no human being is infallible, and we are all faulty. since we either define ourselves by agreeing with things or by disagreeing with them, we end up taking various stances on the so-called “issues”. the fact that there are so many of these issues that humanity as a whole cannot agree on demonstrates that we are incredibly fallible and quite bad at finding the truth. a lot of people do not even give a damn about the truth or whether they are right or not, and even those people who seek the truth often find complete opposite results that contradict each other. what one person finds true, another person will not find true. and so, i believe in nothing whatsoever. who am i to claim that my mind is so superior and my thought process so advanced that i have been able to find all of the answers and that none of them are wrong? i make no such arrogant prideful claims of omniscience. somebody else might believe something different from me. in fact, many people believe things that directly contradict what i believe. and so, i believe in neither the things i believe in, nor the things they believe in. i only half-heartedly believe in things, and never go all the way with my beliefs. i never clinch the deal and become a complete believer. i am too conscious of my faults, of the fact that i am a fallible human, to give complete credence to whatever foolhardy notions cross into my consciousness. and of course, i do not believe anyone else. of course other people might believe what they say, and think they are telling the truth, and maybe they are telling the truth. but even if they know that, i don’t know that. who are they to tell me that they know everything despite being fallible humans? now you might be wondering, why can i not at least believe in a few things, the obvious things that must be true, that everyone agrees on, like the sky being blue and grass being green and snow being white, like the sun being about 93 million miles away and really bright, and like the story on how babies are made when 2 people have sex? well, you see, i am such a diehard skeptic, that i even question the most obvious aspects of reality. in fact, i question them all the time, just like i question everything else all the time. perhaps all of my life experiences and everything i ever learned, and what is going on right now that i am witnessing, perhaps it is all a great big lie, and i am in some sort of simulation, and it is virtual reality, or a hallucination, or a dream, or something of that sort. perhaps i am some sort of being who exists in another realm outside this universe that i currently witness firsthand and have all these so-called beliefs about. maybe the entire universe is one big scam, and while the real me is off in the real universe stuck in a virtual reality simulator, some con man is stealing all my money or something. if they even have money in the real universe that actually exists, the one that the real me is in, in a virtual reality simulator that makes me think i am in this fake universe. but all of that is a hypothetical scenario i just made up, and it is easy to make them up, like in the movie “the matrix” and its 2 sequels. the exact details of the virtual reality or the dreaming or hallucination or whatever, they are all different depending on who is coming up with the explanation for why what we think of as reality is one big giant lie, a hoax. i do not believe in any of these reality-denying conspiracy theories that say we are actually living in some other universe and experiencing this one through some sort of trans-universal virtual reality hallucination system. i do not believe one way or the other, although i am strongly leaning towards reality being real, towards the idea that all the obvious things observed through empirical evidence and deduced through logic are true. i just question whether the things deduced through empirical evidence are all true, because perhaps our senses cannot be trusted. luckily, in science, people can and do replicate experiments, and if different people all get the same results, it is highly unlikely that they are all having the same hallucinations or delusions regarding the outcome. but, all of science is based upon the premise that our universe and the things we are experimenting on do in fact exist, and are not simply illusions meant to deceive us. if that premise is false, science is still true, however. science still describes this universe we seem to be inhabiting, regardless of whether or not this universe exists. even if the whole thing is a virtual reality simulation, science still provides the best and only real path to a truthful understanding of how things operate inside this simulation of virtual reality. within whatever scope our universe exists and/or operates, science is correct, even if the universe itself is simply a computer simulation or something imagined by a superior intellect, a giant brain connected to all of our brains with wires in another universe. and those images i conjure up are simply primitive earth-biased images i have based on my experiences here on earth as a human. a space alien from another planet would have a completely different point of view, and one that is equally valid. regardless of how advanced any hypothetical race of aliens may be, they still deal with the same universe and the same scientific laws. they are made of the same chemical elements and have the same laws of physics as we have here. so any aliens that might exist are not too different from us, at least in that respect. and since they cannot go faster than the speed of light, and probably travel much slower, and since our universe is so full of blank space with nothing in it, with everything really far apart, it is highly unlikely we humans will ever encounter any space aliens, unless the aliens come from somewhere else in our solar system. and all indications are that the other planets are devoid of life and always have been, although this is not 100% certain by any means. there is certainly a possibility that mars once had life, for example. but what possibility? probably less than 10%. but we humans try to be optimistic and hold out hope for things like that which are unlikely. anyway, nothing is certain, because our human minds are not advanced enough to understand reality for what it is. we are too biased by the fact that we are living life forms, each having our own experiences, and each constantly engaging in actions necessary for our continued survival, such as eating, drinking, peeing, pooping, breathing, and sleeping. those are the main 6. and the 7th one, to keep the species going and replace ourselves because we all get old and die? sex. so we have to do 7 things to continue existing as a species, the same ones all the other animals do. and of course everything i say is hypothetical, and nothing is ever for certain. i just like to express my thoughts as if i am certain, to put emphasis on things despite my lack of complete belief in what i say. perhaps this is a bit dishonest but i cannot find the proper tools in the english language arsenal to accurately represent the ambiguity. plus, i have certain agendas which i am pursuing, certain things i would like to accomplish or have done or help out with, and sometimes you need to put on a certain posture in order to advance such an agenda. like, for example, i am completely pro-abortion, regardless of which trimester it is, and what the circumstances are. people should have the right to kill unborn pre-human fetuses. why? because i said so. maybe you disagree. so what? who cares? it is not like anybody’s opinion matters anyway. not mine, not yours. it is all insignificant. so we might as well go ahead and believe things regardless of whether they are true or not. i mean, what the hell? go for it. believe something you know is a lie! who cares? do it! everybody else is doing it! we have an entire planet of lunatics who believe things that are obviously untrue, yet nobody who is sane seems to have the ability to cure the lunatics of their insanity, nor do the lunatics come to their senses often enough to impact the demographic data as much as i would like. one thing i believe is that all ideologies, that is, all systems of belief devised by humankind, are false, fatally flawed because the people who made them were fallible humans who just made stuff up. and so, i reject all ideologies, including my own ideology, which is an anti-ideology because it declares itself to be false. since it is a paradox and self-contradiction, i do not believe in it at all. i completely disavow it. nothing but lies. that is why i believe nothing at all. even if we are 99.99999999999% sure that the universe is real and this is not a dream or virtual reality or anything, there is still some uncertainty. nothing whatsoever is certain. what about the heisenberg uncertainty principle? what about the godel incompleteness theorem? both communism and capitalism are fatally flawed, and neither one works. we have still not found a good enough economic system, and are merely coping with ones that are sort of okay but not really. everything we do is flawed because we are flawed. that is why the war in iraq went so badly. all of us humans are idiots, regardless of how smart we may think we are based on some test that compares us to other humans who are even stupider than we are. anyone who denies this obvious fact is a moron. and so is anyone who agrees. nobody knows anything, and those who think they know things are wrong. truth is fiction. the future already happened in the past but we all have amnesia. the most dangerous form of insanity is sanity. so forget everything, because you already forgot most of it, and the bits you still remember are all a bunch of crap. none of what i say here matters, because it is all bullshit. of that i am certain, which is why i adamantly refuse to believe anything that i actually do believe. this intellectual exercise is not over yet! i will continue refusing to believe anything at all, until reality finds me, because i am sick and tired of trying to find reality. here in the future, when i am typing this, the past has already happened. believe it or not, i am writing this in the distant future, and back when you read this, that was ancient history. you are dead right now, while i am writing this, in the future. since you are reading this in the past, back when you were alive, i wonder what that was like for you. probably kind of weird. but all the records from that time period were destroyed in world war 3, the second coming of christ, the apocalypse, and armageddon. now that all of that business has long ago been dealt with, i can safely tell you that nobody ever had any clue what the hell was going on, and we are still all clueless. as for why i still exist, or how i managed to come back into existence if i was gone for awhile, who knows? this is the future. probably some sort of advanced technology or something. how do you know i am not writing this in the distant future? you can never know anything for sure. so that is why you should not know anything at all. because this sentence is not true. or is it?